An Extremist For Love

7th Day of the Troops Home Now Fast

Martin Luther King said that we needed to be “extremist for love.” Our times call on us live for love, the love of the planet and its evolutionary process. How I wish Wayne had the courage, the heart, and the wisdom to embrace this love I feel for the wind of global change that is leading us to an entirely new way of life. Teaching and leading by example can only go so far. Then it is up to the individual to find the power within to cast out fear and become the Beloved. It seems to be much more difficult for men to embrace this paradigm shift towards the divine feminine than it is for women. After all, the patriarchy has been in control of the planet for thousands of years. Giving up power is frightening unless you have a vision of a better place in which you are moving towards.

There were moments that I believed that Wayne loved me, Neutopia, the visionary prophetess who carried in her womb a jewel of a new planetary religion. There were moments that I thought the actually admired my passion to find a way to get my message to the public. After reading my dissertation Gaia, The Planetary Religion, The Sacred Marriage of Art and Science, and numerous essays and poems, I thought he had a grasp on my world view.

Maybe the four years we have lived together that is what I wanted to believe. I wanted to believe that he was my soul mate, a partner in lovolution, a wise man who would act on behalf of global justice, no matter how small a deed towards that goal. It is not that I expected him to be a Moses, Christ, Buddha, or Mohammed or any other of the holy men who were the founders of religious systems. I just was happy with him being a faithful partner and caring for me, making me feel that I was a worthy person even though the rest of the world didn’t seem to think so. I wanted him to see me as a key figure in the making of our Lovolution video.

Like in all relationships, I’ve made mistakes that have hurt our union. I read a quote in The New American Spirituality by Elizabeth Lesser, by Voltaire. It says, “To understand all is to forgive all.” What is all? The God/dess Head? Is it the cycle of life and death, of love and eternity, the infinite universal wonders within us? Yes, I want to understand all. So, I forgive all. I forgive that Wayne can’t love me fully, holy, holistically and work with me even through difficult times. I forgive his violent rages against the very essence of my soul.

And I forgive the God/dess head for not providing me with the means to find my Beloved in the flesh on Earth to manifest the Lovolution. May the God/dess forgive me for being a failed human being, so far unable to actualize the creative ecocity designs that I can so clearly see in my mind’s eye.

One might wonder what does this have to do with the TROOPS HOME NOW fast? My goal here is not only to stop the war in Iraq, but to liberate the planet from thousands of years of ecocide and tyranny. The goal is to usher in a paradigm shift so that we create a morphic field necessary to begin reordering the world resources to bring the balance of nature back into our lives.

What I am starting to see is that lovolution is different than revolution because lovolution is a spiritual transformation of our architectural foundations where as revolution is political change. There is a politics to lovolution, but it is not traditional politics. It is about creating a sacred hierarchy or global meritocracy that is far deeper and wiser than the current political system. In my Gaian mythology, the hieros gamos, the sacred marriage, is what activates the Gaia Messiah consciousness. It is the enactment of a partnership society and the beautiful solar civilization it inspires.

Wayne never married me. He said he couldn’t officially marry me because he would loose his public health care for the poor and I didn’t have enough money to provide him with health care. But maybe he just didn't want to do sacred marriage ritual with me. I don’t mean a legal marriage, but a ritual in which we wed ourselves to world service. Maybe this is why it has been so easy for him to walk away from me over and over again because there was never a public commitment to our partnership to peace. He never made the commitment to go to the root causes of the violence and hatred towards me within himself that would periodically raise its monstrous head. I’ve had my moments of the monstrous head as well. For that, I need to be forgiven. But I certainly never abandoned him when he was making a stand against the Empire. I encouraged it and thought he was a hero for being a real man.