Believing in Myself

Day 16th Troops Home Fast

I’m wondering why I feel so good after not eating anything solid for more than two weeks. But I am filled with energy. My head is clearer than ever. I feel a sense of purpose. I’m starting to think that we have been brainwashed to think that we have to eat a least three times a day. We have been brainwashed about some much of our lives. Maybe how much food we need to consume in a day is just another one of the brainwashes we were brought up believing.

My research into housing archetypes concluded that our current housing development pattern of the single family house is a brainwash. Those of us who were not brought up homeless and were raised surrounded by the "American dream" were brainwash by the very walls of the house. The single family house is a patriarchal invention that causes us to divide the world into secular and sacred space. This division has resulted in urban sprawl which has cause massive species extinction.

In the time of the reign of the Great Goddess people lived communally. Their cities were not broken up in individual nuclear families. Now we need to build an architecture that brings us back together so that we don't destroy the entire biosphere.This is what the essence of the Gaia Religion is about. It is a religion of eocfeminist thealogy, the union of spirit and ecology.

Day 17th Troops Home Fast




I got real hungry after my Access Tucson Studio Production class. I ended up getting a can of spit pea soup at the grocery store and eating it. Every bit was a prayer to the Goddess that we are going to evolve beyond war and move towards arcology.

I’m having more faith in myself lately. But it is difficult to move ahead and invest in my gifts. What I am referring to is that I have been thinking about creating a Lovolution Village T-shirt. I know that I will wear one, but will anyone else want one? So, how many should I print up? Can I sell them on my web site? Can I really make this word Lovolution come alive?

There are so many doubts that arise in my consciousness, but there is a greater consciousness that says to me, “Go ahead with your creative idea for world peace. The Bomb lurks everywhere, staring down your neck, so you better act now with your transformative vision.”

This morning I wrote the Green Party about presenting my Arcology Phoenix paper at their convention. I’ve been working on making this happen for months, but it seems as though my proposal got lost in their bureaucracy. I also called Code Pink about presenting my Sacred Arcology Workshop at their upcoming retreat. However difficult it is for me to step forward and promote myself. However, the thought of living through a nuclear holocaust or living in a polluted, global warmed world with traffic jams forces me to get my message out.